Date:	2006-04-05 20:51
Subject:	Hump Day
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused
Music:	"all you wanted" Michelle Branch

So today has been pretty good. School was fine. Found that I am getting pretty good grades. Nothing really eventful went on. Did a lot of thinking today though (I think it was when I was supposed to be learning math whoops:]) but things that I thought out can be tricky? I know what I want but I am not sure if what I want wants me. Like for example, where I want to go to school and whither that schools wants me there. If the people I like like me as much or more or have no option on me at all. I think I like to anaylize things just a tad too much and when the answer stares me straight in the face I normally don't even see it becasue i am too involed looking at some petty detail. or may be i should just stop thinking and going with the flow


advice would be good

Date:	2006-04-03 20:30
Subject:	Manic Mondays
Security:	Public
Mood:	grateful
Music:	"Save Tonight" Eagle Eye Cherry

My weekend was swell. Went up to Maine for my Ma Mere's 80th surprise trip thing. It was wicked fun. Didn't feel all to good saturday morning but ended up feeling fab the rest of the time. Got to do some major working out at their mini gym and swam a bit. My cousin who we didn't think was coming came, which was fun. We all went out to dinner and such. The next day we all went out for some buffet breakfast and boy did i eat it was so good. Then we shopped a bit in downtown Portland. It is really funky down there and i have to say i might just look at some schools there. Today was a bit rough. Woke up really late. Chem lab broke a beaker and Andrea got cut by a glass rod. SPanish she wasn't there and i need to do retakes. Then math we did something but i didn't bother to learn in. Yuli Zenkov was out for like the first time ever and we had a sub and i went home. CLeaned a bit didn't have to babysit so i went and bought some new sneaks. Now here and then shower. I guess i must learn to deal with things and get over it cause it just isn't going to work for me . O well life goes on

Date:	2006-03-31 17:09
Subject:	life is shit
Security:	Public
Mood:	shitty

I wanted this Friday to be soo good and it turned out to be the worst thing to happen. English got a reasearch papers back. Basically i didn't do well at all. Then contemp iss was so boring and a waste of time. Fashion I forgot my dress to finsish up. History was a waste too. I just been having the worst luck and i am too chicken to do anything about it. I wish i was a strong as i "appear" to be. God things are sunny aren't they?

Date:	2006-03-30 22:31
Subject:	Why can't thing s go my way?
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	"MMBOP" hanson

I am really tired right now and i really can't foucus on much of anything but what random thoughts are going threw my mind. I want answers to the questions that keeep popping up. for an example, Is he completly blind or i am that unlikeable? Does my Spansih teacher really want to give me a heart attack? Will college be good for? Am i not alone in these feelings. I feel like lately little things are becoming my obsession like i can't stop thinking whither i am wasting my time once again and any thing that happened in the past year or so is worth anything in his eyes. I also can't sleep because i can't seem to relax enough and i keep on thinking i am gunna go broke before i got to Greece and i won't make it. i just wish thing went smoothly for once URGGG i hate how one thing sets off other things and i hate not knowing if i am wasting my time and i hate how i get when things like this goes on DAMMMMM IT!

Date:	2006-03-19 19:49
Subject:	Remembrance
Security:	Public
Mood:	okay
Music:	"Breaking Free" High School Musical <3 :D

This week went by pretty fast. I might be done with my dress soon (hopefully if something else doesn't go wrong). Had an okay weekend. Friday Ashley and I were going to go skating but it didn't work out , so Alicia , Ashley, and myself hung out. Ash made cookies, that didn't really look or taste like normal cookies but they were good. Saturday I had SAT prep. That didn't get over til 330ish and at 5 i babysat all night. Today I woke up baked some toffee cookies and then went over to Kelly's memorial service. It is kind of strange to look back and see how much all of us have changed since then. I miss Kelly and it pains me sometime to think of her and how she lived , and then compare it to how i live. I am looking to change I guess. Went ot Boston with Susan. We didn't buy much but i got my earings for prom! I can't believe how close it is. Tomorrow I have lab and I really wish I had study. I think I am going to leave it at that.

Date:	2006-03-17 17:36
Subject:	Happy Day of Irishness
Security:	Public
Mood:	groggy
Music:	" Get over it" OKGO

So happy Saint Pat Day to all of ya'll. Sorry for not updating in like forever, but i have been sadly grounded from the computer other than the minor break-on to chat with you live journal posting has been on the bottom of my list but since i am un grounded i'd thought i'd post. Life has been life. Back on the roller coaster of undecided feelings. Going back and forth and by the way pro's and con's list suck. I think i try to go with the flow but realize that is a lot harder to do. May be i just make my own problems and the solution is right there and front of me but i am too dumb to realize it. O well. Anyways I got to see Lauren today ! YAY! Ate a monster of a cookie (elmo looking thing) and tonight i will skate it off with Ashley. Tomorrow is going to be busy but Sunday is free so call with plans :D

Date:	2006-02-20 18:56
Subject:	Vacation and Groundation
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	" The Phrase that Pay" the Acdamey is...

Well Vacation has gotten off to a slow start. Friday i babysat and watched the Olympics. Saturday i had my SAT tutor. I didn't do a section and before she came i did it and my dad got peeved and grounded me :(. So now i can't go on instant messenger for like for a while which sucks so if you have plans call me ! Last night had a camp sleep over at Sues's casa. It was good fun. Watched Anchorman and 13 going on 30 and we were just plain goofy. Today took a nap and played tag with the neighborhood (aka the Pintos) and tonight is writing letters and SAT prep crap please call with plans

Date:	2006-02-17 15:18
Subject:	Miss my Kitty </3
Security:	Public
Mood:	gloomy
Music:	"I'll be " Sean Mullins

Well yesterday sucked a whole lot. My cat Spooky had to be put down and it was unbelievably hard to do. I mean i had her almost all of my life. She had been around as long as i could remember, so when i had to say goodbye ( i won't deny i was a wreck) i felt like i was saying goodbye to my childhood and most of what i knew. I don't know what else more to say the cat was apart of my family and it isn't going to be the same for a long time but atleast she isn't suffering any more

Date:	2006-02-14 18:06
Subject:	Coperate America Sucks Big Time
Security:	Public
Mood:	drained
Music:	"Freshman" Wallflowers

So today started off as a good now it just plain sucks. As most American's know that today is the 14th of Febuary (a day after my half birthday)is a day for couples and love. Niether of which i belong to but none the less i got up this morning and gathered my valentines for my friends. I was feeling pretty pumped due to me wearing " The best girls are Canadian" shirt and my hair actually looking good for a change. So got to school gave out my valentines and got cookies from Katelynn. Then at Cafe Study Ryan asked me to Prom and i said yes. So now i have a date and can go out and get a dress. Yay! But otday was 8 periods and i hated it. Got most of the class check off except math cause she is being dumb. But it is sad that this was the last time i would ever fill out my schulded for high school! But i just was soo pooped today, may be the Olympics is a bad thing due to my lack of sleep. Katie came and tuotred me and then i tried to focus on my paper and i can't but o well. I guess i got a little ahead of myself and i need to just chill out. Okay i am going to get my boyfriends out of my freezer. Yumm Ben and Jerrry's :D

Date:	2006-02-11 10:42
Subject:	Driver's Ed is OVER :D
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	"LSF" Kasabian

Finshed driver's ed last night. I was the first to finsh the test (YAY). It was a breeze and then came home and watch the Olympics! Today is an all cleaning and picking up so gunna be bored but i'll update later on i guess

Date:	2006-02-04 22:27
Subject:	I'm FREE!
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic
Music:	"Don't Speak" No Dount

Okay so, here i am just chilling talking to people one the COMPUTER! for those who say " i do that all the time", for me it is different; due to my un groundation :D! YA! So i started Driver's Ed this week. First night i was the biggest loser ever ( i sat in the front), I knew no one but i made it up in the second night. Now i have driver's Ed friends. yay. Got our report card did good ( except math C-) but i don't know for once my life is order and i am extremely happy. May be i'm finding don't fight the way of life jsut go with it. Caty over and out

Date:	2006-01-21 22:29
Subject:	I want my Fairy Tale Ending
Security:	Public
Mood:	worried
Music:	"Take me Away" fefe Dobsion

Midterms are OVER :D yay! Hung out/ got lunch with Divya, Molly, and Ash. Then had people sleepover.We got to see Lauren :D. Today cookie booth sale which was fun. Now it is neighborhood sleepover. But while we watching the Disney Channel i got to thinkning how it is always the perfect endings and it got me thinking " when will my happing ending happen" that's all i just gettingf tired of crap. O well

Life is Random...ask questions
Ocean or Lake?	Lake
Pizza or Chinese?	Chinese
Mansion or Penthouse?	How about a Mansion Penthouse?
Have you been on a Jet Ski?	Nope
Are you afraid of clowns?	Nope
How many brothers/sisters do you have?	2 sister and 1 brother
Favorite band/group?	at the mo Panic! at the Disco/ Taxpayer
Baseball or football?	BOTH
Favorite brand of makeup?	Mark. by Avon
Waffles or pancakes?	Waffles
Do you have an IPod?	No, but getting a Creative Lab
Bike or scooter?	Bike
Ever go in a hot air balloon?	no, but i want to
How will you celebrate turning 21?	Its a bit far in the future
What brand computer do you have?	Dude i gots a Dell :D
How many times have you been to DisneyWorld?	3
Favorite city?	<3 Boston
Ice cream or frozen yogurt?	Frozen Yogurt
Do you think you are fat?	not reallt
Ever throw up in a public place?	the high way counts right?
Do you have a pool?	I wish
Ever drive a car?	Yes
How many times a month do you go to the movies?	Depends what is out, but the norm is 1
Last movie you saw?	Family Stone
Who is your hero?	My Dad
How old are your parents?	47 and45 i think
What deceased person would you like to meet?	Keith Moon
Do you chew ice?	Yes
Have you been to California?	No
Last book you read?	Sloppy First
Favorite teacher?	Mr. Roberts
Do you like to go fishing?	Yes, my dad is a fisherman! duh
How many of those do you regret?	I don't get the question but i do have regrets
What is you average in school?	B
Favorite professional team?	Pats and the Sox
Do you like mohawks?	Heck Yes
How many pairs of shoes do you own?	may like 25
Do you floss?	Yes
Do you have braces?	Not any more
Do you bite your nails?	Not unless i am wicked nervous
What is your last thought before falling asleep?	Will i ever find happiness? ( lately)
Do you fall in love easily?	I would have to say no
Ever have a crush and they never knew?	O yea
Do you babysit?	Alot
Ever been shot at?	Yes, by my cousin's paint ball gun
Do you work out/exercise?	Yes, i swim :D
Do you have 6 pack abs?	no
Do you consider yourself nice?	yes
What movie character would you like to be?	Hercules
Do you go to camp for the summer?	Yes I LOVE SUMMER CAMP
Ever been bit by a snake?	no
Have you been on a boat?	yes i own one
Name of friend you have known the longest?	Susan
Do you like jumping on a trampoline?	yes
Ever break a bone?	many
Name of favorite Aunt/Uncle?	Auntie Mo
What is your ultimate job?	Fashon Desginer
Do you want to walk on the moon?	Sure
Can you name the seven dwarfs?	Doopey, Sneezy, Sleepy, Grumpy,Doc, Happy, Bashful
Favorite TV show?	ALIAS/Desgrassi/Wild Fire
Apples or oranges?	Oranges
Favorite model of car?	VW Jetta
Favorite flower?	Daisy
Favorite color?	Yellow
Besides family, ever have someone of the opp sex in your bedroom?	Yea but it was my neighbor
Ever climb out your bedroom window?	No
Do you live in an apartment or house?	House
How many times in the last month have you had the hiccups?	i don't know
Ever laugh so hard milk came out your nose?	O yeah
How many cousins do you have?	7 first i think
Do you believe in ghosts?	"I do believe in spooks"
If you were a bird, what would you be?	Cardinal
Ever get stitches?	Loads of em'
If you could, would you want to know what your future was going to be?	No, I like surprises
How many kids do you want to have?	3 to 4
If you could change your name, what would it be?	Rorie
Dogs or cats?	both
Who do you tell your problems to?	My friends and journal
Who can your tell your secrets to and know they wont tell?	All my Friends and journal
Do you believe in love at first sight?	Of Course
Do you go to church?	Sometimes
Would you marry outside your religon?	Yes i would
Volleyball or tennis?	Tennis
How many people were at your last party?	haha 8
Ever ride in a limo?	Yup
Ever drink champagne?	No
Favorite dinner?	i Love Steak, green beans, cooked carrot, and mash potatoes
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

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Date:	2006-01-07 21:34
Subject:	Hammers and Hearts
Security:	Public
Mood:	lonely
Music:	Lying is the most fun a girl can have... Panic! at the disco

I don't know what is wrong with me lately... i mean i am happy very happy enjoying life but i feel like i missing something. It's taken me about a week to figure what that something is and i hate writting this but i need a place to vent about. I love being me and single but this major part of me that want a boyfriend ( quite alot i must addmitt). But the thing i just don't want some fling. I want someone to have flirting banter with, someone to drag to a chick flick, but most of someone who i can have some sort of can relate to me, May be i should just stop looking and then it may come to me but idon't i am rambling .... o what ever can't think

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Date:	2006-01-02 21:10
Subject:	2005 is out now i's 2006 but to recap
Security:	Public
Mood:	groggy
Music:	" I so hate consequences" Relient K

In 2005 I...

{x} broke a promise
{x} made a new friend
{ } done something you swore never to do
{x} lied
{ } stole
{x} went behind your parents back
{x} cried over a broken heart(too many times)
{x} dissapointed someone close
{x} hid a secret
{x} pretended to be happy
{ } got arrested
{ } kissed in the rain
{x} slept under the stars( 143 camp nights)
{ } kept your new years resolution
{ } forgot your new years resolution
{x} didn't have a new years resolution
{ } met someone who changed your life
{ } met one of your idols
{x} changed your outlook on life
{x} sat home all day doing nothing
{x} pretended to be sick
{ } left the country
{ } almost died
{x} gave up on someone important to you
{ } lost something expensive
{x} learned something new about yourself
{x} tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
{x} made a change in your life
{x} found out who your true friends were
{x} made a total fool of yourself ( i always do ;D)
{x} met great people


2005 Bitches And Bros.

Did you meet any new friends this year? Of course my camp girls<3
Did any of your friendships end? not really
Did you dislike anyone? yes, but not too strongly
Did you get into any fights? loads with liz and one with meg ( i won all of them cause i am uber buff!)
Did you make any new enemies? hm, not to my knowledge
Did you resolve any fights? the attempt was there, but no

2005....The Holidays!

Did you have a Valentine? no way jose
the Easter bunny visit you? he always does
Did watch fireworks on the 4th of July?the dinky kind that camp does
Did you dress up for Halloween? Heck yes twice areobics instructor and pro skier and yeah a cow girl
What did you do for Thanksgiving? had Turky day eve and Turkey day at mi casa
Did you make a list of gifts for the holidays?no i jsut kind of bought and checked off names as i went
Did you receive what you wanted? most def.

2005 Your BIRTHDAY!!!

How old did you turn? 16
What did you do for your birthday? had my first birthday party in like 6 years it was unbelieveable and wicked awsome
Did you have a party? HECK YES
Did you get any presents? loads


2005......The Memories and Accomplishments!

Funniest Memory? Too many to list but numerous at camp
Saddest Memory? Walking up that Hemlocks hill knowing i was going to make a phone call to hear the horrible news and knowing that i wasn't going to be there for my bestest friend
Best Accomplishment? improving as a person and getting swim captain
Favorite TV shows? Wildfire, Beautiful People,Instant Star, Degrassi, Alias
Favorite food: hmm hard to say
Favorite stores? Forever 21 and AE
Favorite restaurants? lots of little places in Boston
Favorite piece of clothing? My tops
2005.....All about YOU....

Did you change at all this year? change is everywhere soo yeah i did
Was 2005 a good year? Over all looking the bads it was very good
Did 2005 bring any new insights? yeah i guess it did
Do you think 2006 will top 2005? With every year my life gets better
Do you have any goals for 2006? already listed them
Do you wish 2005 wouldn't end? every good thing must come to an end
Do you plan to do anything special for NYE 2006? may be NYC next year?
Who will you be kissing at Midnight? do i seem like the kind of girl guys would go for? i think not

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Date:	2005-12-27 22:36
Subject:	News Years a bit early for me
Security:	Public
Mood:	optimistic
Music:	"Last Summer" Lost Prophets

Today has been another fabulous day of my vacation. Woke up at 11:30a.m. and went online to chat to people and ended up going to the gym with ashley, which was a bunch of fun. Came home and showered and cleaned up some things in my room. Kind of pondered into the abyss. Figured somethings out and i really hoping this New Year will be wicked awsome (which not matter what it will be) but since i won't be to update in NH i thought i would post my new year resolutions or what i have so far
1. Learn as much Greek before i go, and when i go;to have the best time of mylife
2. Get in tip top shape for health reasons and next swim season
3. Become a more open minded person
4. Find someone I truely care for
5. Make it apoint to get better grades, due to college is right around the coner : O
6. Try to forgive people/ get to know others better
7. Get along better with my siblings
8. Make a new friend
9. Go to numerous Concerts
10. ..... have figured out 10 yet:/


Any ways i'll be sure to update on the nothingness that will happen in NH

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Date:	2005-12-25 15:33
Subject:	DANG! it's christmas and chanukah : D
Security:	Public
Music:	"Brusied" Jack's Manquine

Today has been WONDERFUL : D!!! Got alot of very wicked things... GOt my Rielent K T my Creative (trading it in though for another color and may be an upgrade) Got very cute bags (one from Liz and my parents) Cute top from Tiff. GOt the cutest colage from Meghan. Also got all the Mark. make up i asked for... Just all around a great day. i <3 my parents and my my family<3 Hope everyones christmas and chanukah goes well

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Date:	2005-12-24 12:43
Subject:	Scar Tissue i Wish you S A W
Security:	Public
Mood:	daydreaming
Music:	"Cable Cars" The Fray

Merry Christmas Eve everyone and happy vacation too. Past 52 hours have been the best ever. Thrusday was the last day of school before we had vacay. Katelynn was legal to drive others in her car so Danelia Ashley and Lauren (and me too) all pilked into Starla and went and got some lunch. Then we went back to the school to pick up Divya and then we headed into Cambridge to shop at the Galliera. Had loads of fun got three tops two AE pant a bag and the last of my christmas shopping done. We had a Danelia belated birthday dinner. Then we all went to Lauren's house and we did some girl talk and hung out. Then in the a.m. Mrs. Creedon made the best breakfast i have ever had. Then we went out and got our nails done and said bye to Katelynn. Cleaned my room soo it is all ::.clean.:: and ::*sparkly*::. Then saw " A Christmas Story" which was amazing and miss Emily was soo very good. Then Zach, Emmie, Meg, my mom and myself all went to the 99's and got some food:D Great timje hanging with them. An the home and bed... Can't wait for tonight and tomorrow. :D

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Date:	2005-12-18 21:11
Subject:	CHISMAHANKWAKKAH
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	"Honorable Mention" Fall out Boy

Had a good weekend... Friday : was not too shabby had my Chrismahankankkah party which was a blast Saturday : went shopping with my dad and the babysat two babies later on that day. NAd today was lougeing about and cleaning (sort of) can't wait for this week to be over and no longer have to go to school for a bit.. thats about it. Just going to go with the flow :D

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Date:	2005-12-05 20:36
Subject:	Randomness
Security:	Public

Had a boring weekend. today was kind of hectic did a lot of work. Spanish was boring and Math i actually got what we were doing :D. Chem was just chem. We had our Sports Banquet tonight and i am a captain for next year YAY:D. Then out to eat with my dad and got some pizza @ Angelo's then here next bed...

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